Thursday, May 28, 2009

If I Make It Out Alive!

Yesterday, I had a panic attack. I have talked with people who have had them, it was one!

I have an irrational fear of people coming to my door, I never know who it is going to be, what it is about, etc. It could be the UPS man, and I am still fearful of people knocking on my door.

I don't know what possessed me to go to lunch today, probably to get the freak out of my house. Let's just say I am glad I did because what do I come home to?

A notice on my door from the Maricopa County Vector Control, they were here to look at the green pool that has been reported because it is breeding mosquitoes! Let's just say that I am really glad I wasn't here. What the notice does say is that someone will be back in 48 hours to see that the problem has been taken care of!

There are so many things wrong with receiving this notice today (1) we move out of this pile of crap in 3.5 days, (2) I don't have time to be dealing with the pool that we have been trying to get someone to fix for months and (3) this is not doing anything to help my fear of being in this house!

Does the MCVC Department really think I want these God forsaken bugs here, this place is DISGUSTING!? You know who probably reported the pool, my favorite neighbors-KARMA right!


Cynthia said...

I have that same fear. Whenever someone knocks on the door or rings the doorbell, I shush the girls and creep to the nearest window I can look out without being seen, before opening the door. I'm petrified of home invasion, not to mention getting stuck talking to some kid selling magazines I don't want or need but feeling guilted into it.

Colleen said...

I used to be like that, now it is to the point where I can't leave the bedroom, I am hiding under my covers, and I send Jackson to get my cell phone. I used to not care if they heard me, NOW, I obviously know that nothing is wrong because otherwise I wouldn't send Jackson, but I just can't leave my room if I hear a car or truck driving by! I am seriously CRACKING UP!